Isn’t it cool how daily devotionals seem to be JUST what you need to hear sometimes? I love how God does that. It makes me feel like He’s really close (even though I know He always is).
Truth be told, I’ve been feeling a little defeated recently. Things at home seem to be slipping downhill slowly, and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I will be paying rent, starting next month, and I almost feel like I would rather be staying somewhere else (where I can shower when I want, workout when I want, & come/go as I please) if I’m going to be paying. Not that I don’t love every single person in my family, but it can be frustrating when I get a lecture for spending all my time working out, for a streak left on the countertop after I clean something up, or for not closing my lips around my toothbrush when I brush my teeth. Yes, this is a reality at 22 years-old.
As much as I appreciate the fact that my parents put a roof over my head and would do anything for me if I asked, I can only handle so much micromanaging at this point in my life. For the most part, I have my own schedule, but I feel like they don’t respect me at all as an adult. In fact, I’ve been told that my job is “a joke”, I don’t “have any real responsibilities”, and I “am very dependant” on them. I thought about things realistically, and I guess they’re right. I feel like nothing I do, in their eyes is respectable.
-I bought my own car & make payments every month
-I’m on my own car insurance plan & have monthly payments
-I’m paying my way through school (although, Poppa FF did pay for my first two books as a special treat)
-I am on my own cell phone plan which I pay monthly (both sisters and my grandparents are on my parents’)
-I work a full-time job & took full-time classese last semester so I could play college basketball
-I’m taking part-time classes over the summer
My wonderful boyfriend was the one who brought most of these things to my attention when I was venting to him last night. He is easily the only thing keeping me sane right now, and the parents are actually quite charming while he is around.
What would you do in my situation? Are you a twenty some-thing living at home? Do you pay rent? I’m not sure what to think or feel, so any opinion is welcomed (: